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30 September 2009 @ 07:57 pm
Fallen: A Morgana Fanmix [EP]  
I finally finished my Morgana fanmix that I've been working on all summer! Enjoy! :)

Medium: Television
Fandom: Merlin
Subject: Morgana
Title: Fallen
Warnings: Spoilers for season/series 1 only.
Notes: An angsty mix tracing Morgana's fall from grace and conversion into the antagonist of the legend. Only my own speculation though about what will happen....

This is a mix about my favorite character on Merlin and in Arthurian legend in general, Morgana le Fay, whose tragic, impending fall from grace I tried to capture here as I see it possibly playing out: from her frustrating situation of being a spirited and independent woman in a man’s world with troubling dreams, to her growing distress as her visions worsen and as she develops other magical powers, to finally her turning against Camelot because of Uther’s stance against magic and becoming Arthur’s enemy. I also accompanied each song with some of the images I see when I hear these lyrics.

1. “White Lies” by E.S.T

If you tell me to jump then I'll die
In my dreams I'm there
I always hoped that I'd learn how to fly
In my dreams I'm there

You can tie my hands to the walls
But you can't tie my dreams to this place
I might fall like a rock from your heart
But you won't see me fall from grace

Fate always loses hope
Like electric sparks in my heart
Fate always loses hope
Now be a good girl and do what you're told

I leave my memoirs in blood on the floor
And my fears with the nurse on the stairs
I'm only going where you'll be some day
So don't say rest in peace in your prayers

I hope you, remember me
I hope you, never pretend for me
I hope you, remember me

The bold and spirited Morgana is constantly told to “be a good girl and do what [she’s] told” by the men in her life—Uther, Arthur, Merlin, Gauis. (Once this even extends to chaining her up in the dungeon to teach her a lesson). However nothing and no one can stop the fantastic and horrifying dreams (or nightmares) that she keeps having at night, and which may be of the future…

2. “Somebody Help Me” by Full Blown Rose

I’ve seen the face of my affliction
Of my reality
I’m being tortured by the future
Of things that are yet to be
I'm being haunted by a vision
It's like the morning never comes
I feel the burden of confusion, always searching....on the run
Free me
Before I slip away
Heal me
Wake me from this day
Can somebody help me?

Now, I'm not a hero...no
But the weight of the world's is on my soul
These images burn my eyes
They're burning me up inside.

Morgana is tormented more and more by her disturbing visions of the future.

3. “Stones & Feathers” by Alex Parks

There's nothing left for me to do
just like time and time and time again
What else is left for me to prove?
But when it comes around
I can't help falling down

Is this the state of so-called pleasure?
Or just the weight of stones & feathers?
I'm not myself
maybe I'm never

Just like tear that fades away
Just like a word I can't express or can't explain
A thousand voices in my brain
I wish they'd comfort me
Instead it's torturing

When all is said and done
I confess I've had enough

Morgana’s visions worsen still more, and she begins to feel helpless.

4. “Fallen” by Sarah McLachlan

Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
The lonely light of morning
The wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I have held so dear.

Heaven bent to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarrassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
You'll slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

Caught up in her visions and developing magical gifts, and resenting Uther’s tyrannical stance against magic and her kind, Morgana begins to turn against him and fall from grace…

5. “Weak and Powerless” by Perfect Circle

Little angel go away
Come again some other day
The devil has my ear today
I'll never hear a word you say
Promised I would find a little solace
And some peace of mind
Whatever just as long as I don't feel so

Desperate and ravenous,
So weak and powerless

Morgana continues to slide towards the dark side, choosing to listen to her darker instincts as she tries to rise above her ‘weak and powerless’ situation.

6. “Helena” by My Chemical Romance

We are so far from you

Burning on
Just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know

And what's the worst you take
From every heart you break
And like a blade you stain
Well, I've been holding on tonight

We are the very hurt you sold

Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend?
To leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide

Morgana has finally left Camelot and has turned against Arthur and her former loved ones. This song is from Arthur’s hurt and pained POV as he thinks about the one he once loved, who is now his enemy.

Download Zip Link (includes songs, lyrics, and images): http://www.mediafire.com/download.php?nmynxkounmq
Current Mood: artisticartistic
Current Music: "Weak and Powerless" by A Perfect Circle
Angelachiroro on October 1st, 2009 09:16 am (UTC)
:'( I will definitely be downloading this when I get my external hd back. I agree with your song choices. It will be a sad day when Morgana leaves and becomes Morgan le Fay.

Great job with this fanmix. I also love that you included the lyrics and reasons for you choosing the songs :)
sherrilina: Morgana (Merlin)sherrilina on October 2nd, 2009 02:37 am (UTC)
Thanks! :) I hope that you get your external hd back soon!
Nim: keiraGINEVRAnim4 on October 1st, 2009 09:42 am (UTC)
Snagged!!! I love Morgana since I first read The Mist of Avalon. And she's a great character in Merlin (even if I prefer Arthur, hehe!).
sherrilina: Morgana (Merlin)sherrilina on October 2nd, 2009 02:28 am (UTC)
Ah yes, "The Mists of Avalon" is my favorite Arthurian interpretation, and I think it was a big part of my Morgan le Fay love period! :D I actually went into the show biased for Morgana because of it, though of course her own badass epic self makes her likeable in her own right as well! ;)

And thanks!
praysforluna on October 1st, 2009 01:30 pm (UTC)
I can't wait to listen! I love how you posted the lyrics and wrote about your thoughts! Thank you!
sherrilina: Morgana (Merlin)sherrilina on October 2nd, 2009 02:32 am (UTC)
Thank YOU! :) I hope you like listening to it...
Mara: Arthur/Morgana - Our destiny is apartluckytohaveher on October 1st, 2009 03:53 pm (UTC)
That looks amazing. I'm downloading it right now.

Also I wanted to tell you your header is incredibly beautiful.
sherrilina: Arthur/Morgana 2 (Merlin)sherrilina on October 1st, 2009 10:57 pm (UTC)
Thanks on both counts! Although for the header the credit goes to the LJ user glenien who keeps posting her gorgeous walls around the Merlin fandom! :) The header is just a cropping of one of those walls...
cobaltmistcobaltmist on October 2nd, 2009 05:39 am (UTC)
Looks lovely! I'm eager to give it a listen. Thank you!
sherrilina: Morgana (Merlin)sherrilina on October 6th, 2009 10:55 pm (UTC)
Thanks! Hope you like it...
Darksong: footprintselentiriel on October 3rd, 2009 04:05 pm (UTC)
Downloaded the fanmix and now I can't stop listening to "Fallen." It fits the legend of Morgana/Morgan le Fey so perfectly.

The other songs are good too, but right now I'm on a Sarah McLachlan kick. :)
sherrilina: Morgana (Merlin)sherrilina on October 6th, 2009 10:52 pm (UTC)
Lol, I understand, I was on such a Regina Spektor kick after seeing (500) Days of Summer...glad to provide some McLachlan for your kick! :D

And thanks so much!
ms_legerdemain: lightningms_legerdemain on October 5th, 2009 05:52 am (UTC)
Oh, I like very much. Snagging, thankyou. ♥
sherrilina: Morgana (Merlin)sherrilina on October 6th, 2009 10:49 pm (UTC)
Thanks, hope you enjoy it! :)
faith_less_one: Keep flyingfaith_less_one on October 5th, 2009 07:27 am (UTC)
I just finished "Mists of Avalon" yesterday, and here you are!

Perfect - and I think this mix totally works for her version too. :)
sherrilina: Arthur/Morgana 2 (Merlin)sherrilina on October 6th, 2009 10:54 pm (UTC)
Wow, that is great timing! :D Glad to be of fandom service, lol....hope you enjoy the mix!

And yeah, I adore MoA, it's my personal Arthurian canon! ;)
frozen_in_amberfrozen_in_amber on October 5th, 2009 04:55 pm (UTC)
sherrilina: Morgana (Merlin)sherrilina on October 6th, 2009 10:55 pm (UTC)
Thanks, I hope you like it! :)
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sherrilina: Arthur/Morgana 2 (Merlin)sherrilina on October 6th, 2009 10:51 pm (UTC)
Oooh you really should, it's THE Morgana/Morgaine/Morgan le Fay-centric version, and it's just so epic....:D

Also it's especially great if you ship Arthur/Morgana

And thanks! :)
kristen_midnight_sky_ on October 18th, 2009 05:50 pm (UTC)
awesome mix! :D